Yes, I Bought Myself Flowers

Yes, I Bought Myself Flowers



I have decided to have  a little blogging schedule if you will.  I like schedules…sometimes a little too much!  I know that I have freedom to deviate from this schedule and there will be days I cannot pull off a blogpost, but I thought it might help you, as the reader, to know how I am going about this blogging thing and me, as the writer, to have a starting point!  
As I have mentioned before, I am working on a devotion book for grieving mothers.  I think I have 15+ devotions written and my goal is 30 devotions.  So on Mondays, I am going to post one of these devotions.  And because I love alliteration and plays on words, I am calling it “Monday Mournings.”  These devotions are intended to help grieving mothers relate to the heartache they feel and see God in the midst of their grief.  
I am also going to do my best to post on Wednesdays and Fridays.  So my alliteration for Wednesday is “Wonderful Wednesdays.”  It might be a giveaway or something that has just filled me with wonder that week…we will see.
Friday is for family, so (drum roll please) I am calling it “Family Fridays.”    I will share something about what is going on with our family…
And there is my lengthy explanation to my blogging strategy…thanks for reading along.  So now for today’s “Monday Mourning.”  Enjoy!

Fresh Flowers

I am a realist.  I don’t dream, I analyze.  

I am practical.  I buy useful gifts for birthdays and Christmas.

I do not like small talk.  I can see what the weather is just as well as the next person.  No need to talk about it.  

I sound like a whole lot of fun, don’t I!?!?

You can just imagine how much fun I was after Daniel died.  

My realistic self said, “My son is dead.  My heart and body ache.  What am I supposed to do with myself now?”   Read more

I Think I am Getting a Little Excited Over Here

I Think I am Getting a Little Excited Over Here


I have never been one of those people who stayed awake all Christmas Eve anticipating the presents in the morn.  Honestly, I am rarely an excitable person.

Having just written that out, I am contemplating how much fun I really am…

Anyway, this week, I have been working on pre-order forms, tax ID numbers, talking with bookstores about carrying this book and even a book signing or two!

And y’all, I have had not one, but two dreams that my books arrive this week.

I think I might be getting a little excited about the books getting here.

Or it could just be that we are not exactly sure what 1,000 books will look like or how we will transport said books, but if there is one thing I do know, it is this:  God has had His hand on this project since day one, He has provided abundantly for it and so I know He’s got this.

I read this scripture this morning and it reminded me to be still…God’s at work.

“Wait on the Lord, be strong and let your heart take courage; and wait on the Lord.” Psalm 27:14

If you are waiting on God’s timing or provision, know that your waiting is not in vain…take courage…God’s got it!

Beach or Bust

Beach or Bust

So every May we take a girls’ trip to the beach.  Dustin’s grandmother and sister go with us when they can.  It is much fun for all…

Last year was the first time that my little ladies were tall enough to swim in the shallow end so Mommy (me) did not have to get in the water all day (every day).  I had forgotten what it was like to read a book by the pool…aah.

I went to the beach this year with two goals in mind:  to write and to swim laps.  It is hard to swim laps in a pool not designed for laps, but I got a brilliant idea:  I will swim in the lazy river…backwards!

My goal was two laps and I made it for three laps going against the current and then I decided to do a lap the right way doing the butterfly (I can use all the help I can get with that stroke).  It was wonderful.

Then about 3 hours later, I commented to Molly that the muscles above my hips were hurting…oh boy, I am definitely out of shape.

I got some writing done, but I quickly remembered that my first priority is not writing…though I am enjoying it greatly.  But my first priority after the Lord is my people. So I have backed off on the writing for now, but will  work on it as I have time.

But the girls had a wonderful time.  They had new bathing suits and goggles thanks to Mamaw and Mama Scotti.


I walked a few miles here and there on the beach and it was wonderful.  I even talked our youngest into joining us one morning.  During the walk, I asked, “Aren’t you enjoying this walk on the beach?”

To which she responded, “Mommy, this is not fun…we are still walking.”

My littlest lady would rather be doing this:imageor this:


There are always things we can wish we were doing differently, but honestly, there is always something to be thankful for even if you are still having to “walk” instead of doing what you find enjoyable.  Life is just like that!

But no matter where we walk, we have a God who goes before us and leads and guides us while we keep our eyes on Him…for that I am eternally grateful!

“Therefore be imitators of God, as beloved children. And walk in love, as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us, a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.”   Ephesians 5:1-2


Everyone Has Good Hair, But Me!!!

Everyone Has Good Hair, But Me!!!

While scrambling eggs one morning, I overheard the following proclamations coming from the bathroom.

“Daddy has good hair.  Ruthie has good hair.  Julee has good hair.  Izzie Lou has good hair.  Molly Beagle has good hair.  Mommy has good hair.  Everyone has good hair but me!”

(Izzie Lou and Molly Beagle were two dogs we had at the time.)  








Then the tears began to fall on my three-year old’s face.

She thought that her hair was not good.  

At the age of three.  

I stood there thinking….”Why does she even care?  I have tried so hard to not emphasize beauty on the outside.  I’ve been lenient about looks.  I let the girls wear mismatched clothes out in public.  And plastic high heel shoes to the local bagelry for breakfast.  I’ve even been known to take a tiara or two out to lunch.  Why does she care about beauty?”  

LeeAnne saw in the mirror that morning what she was not.  She could not see that she had the most beautiful big blue eyes and was the only one in our family with blond, curly hair.

LeeAnne could only see what she wasn’t instead of what she is.  

I can’t get upset with her – I have the same problem.  

After Daniel died, I remember thinking about how much I wanted to hold him in my arms.  I wanted to his sister to be able to love on him.  I wanted two car seats in my back seat.  I wanted diapers to fill my shopping cart.  

But that was not to be.  At least not at that time in my life.  

Daniel was not meant to live in my house or to be loved on by us here on earth.  Years later, the Lord gave me two other daughters for whom I am most grateful.  I had to buy pull-ups and diapers at the same time!  I had to have three car seats in my car at one time.  And I never complained about it!  It was wonderful to have life in my home after such a tremendous loss.  

But when I was walking the days and weeks after Daniel’s death, I could not see the future.  I could not know for certain that I would ever have another healthy child.  I saw other families having healthy babies.  I saw families full of life and joy and I seemed to have none.  I had allowed my joy to be taken from me by the loss I was enduring.  

I am by no means saying you need to be full of joy and that you need to be happy with whatever God gives to you.  Sometimes that is humanly impossible – we cannot do it in our own strength.  

What I am saying is that when you find yourself uncertain of your circumstances and not thankful for what is going on in your life, take those concerns and frustrations to the Lord.  Ask Him to take those burdens from you.  Ask Him to show you how He is working.  

Sometimes you may need to beg the Lord to show you how He is going to use your circumstances for good, but I promise you that He will never leave you and you can cling to Him during your difficult seasons of life.  

And He will show you that your blond curly hair is beautiful – even if it is different from the others in your life.  He will use all things for His glory if we trust in Him.  


“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.”  Romans 8:28

“Cast your burdens on the Lord, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved.”  Psalm 55:22

“The Lord is gracious and merciful, slow to anger and bounding in steadfast love.  The Lord is good to all, and his mercy is over all that he has made.”  Psalm 145:8-9

Reading to Mamaw & a Giveaway

Reading to Mamaw & a Giveaway


By the time you read this, we will be home so I can tell you that we have had a wonderful time at the beach this week with Dustin’s Mamaw and his sister, Molly.  They are both so much fun!!!image

But being the practical mom that I am, I brought plenty of books for the girls to read while we were here.  I might have even offered some incentive for reading in the form of “Hot Now” Krispy Kreme doughnuts.

My girls don’t always appreciate my dedication to their reading and learning, but it is for their own good.  They will appreciate their ability to read later but now I occasionally hear complaints about the need to read.

Sometimes I can complain about things that are good for me.  Like exercising or eating healthily.  Or I cannot see the good in something until further down the road.

Today, I want to host a giveaway for a $10 Chick-Fil-A gift card.  I know it doesn’t seem like much, but it will get  your whole family some ice dreams…or two gallons of sweet tea.  Or a quiet dinner for one.  Or just $10 off your meal 🙂

To enter, simply comment on this post with something that is good.  It can be something you didn’t realize was good at the time or something that  is good all of the time (like Chick-Fil-A Sweet Tea).

I will use the random number generator from  I will close the giveaway on Sunday at 9pm.  Check your inbox on Monday to see if you won!


That Time Dustin Took Me Fly Fishing…

That Time Dustin Took Me Fly Fishing…

“Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken.  But you, God, will bring down the wicked into the pit of decay; the bloodthirsty and deceitful will not live out half their days.  But as for me, I trust in you.”  

Psalm 55:22-23

Girl:Boy Fly Fishing

My husband is an outdoorsman. For much of our courtship and engagement, I was spent with me traveling for up to two weeks of each month.  We had somewhat of a long-distance relationship.  

When I was home, we would spend all of our free time together.  When I was traveling, the deer and the fish took my place.

When we got married and started putting all of our things in our new house, I was a little surprised at the number of fishing rods and deer heads in my home.  It was then that I learned that you “need” a different rod to fish in the river and a different one to fish in the ocean.  Another type would be needed for the lake.  I think it is safe to say that he has always had more fishing rods than I have had pairs of shoes. Read more

It’s Not Me…It’s Him!!!!!

It’s Not Me…It’s Him!!!!!

Thank you to everyone who has shared our news about I Have a Brother – My Brother is in Heaven since we posted it on Facebook Wednesday night!  I have been overwhelmed with gratefulness for each share and kind comment you have given us!

While I do feel like the Lord gave me this story, I did not make it into the book that it is alone. The Lord has provided the right people to do the right jobs including people to encourage (or URGE) me to finish this project and even people to give generously so that this project could be completed.  I have thanked Him so many times for giving me just what I needed when I needed it.

I should also thank the Lord for His patience with me as I have drug my feet or spun my wheels trying to figure out how to go about the self-publishing route.

I would like to introduce you to two ladies today who God provided to help with this project.  They took my words (I had the easy job) and they made them into illustrations and then into a book that is pleasing to the eye…I am amazed by their giftings and thankful to the Lord for each. Read more