Daniel died very early in the morning on January 28, 2007. My husband pulled out his Bible and read Psalm 28 and then we all cried.
Honestly, I don’t know if I cried because of the words of the Psalm or because of what had just happened, but I know we all cried.
And yet, I remember feeling somewhat comforted. I believe that is the power of God’s word. Anytime I am feeling lost, alone or sad, I can read God’s word, the Bible and I know I am not alone, I know that I have a reason for hope and a future.
After we came home and settled into our “new normal” life without Daniel, I remember looking at Psalm 28 again. The verses that stuck out to me were six and seven:
“Blessed be the Lord! For he has heard the voice of my pleas for mercy. The Lord is my strength and my shield; in him my heart trusts and I am helped; my heart exults, and with my song I give thanks to him.”
I knew the Lord had heard my prayers for Daniel to live. I knew the Lord had given me strength to walk this journey. He had allowed me to have two days to process the idea that my son would not be coming home with me. That instead my son would be going to his eternal Home.
And slowly, but surely, the Lord had helped me to understand his plan and accept it.
It is interesting to me that the verse that stuck out the most to my husband was verse 9:
“Be their shepherd and carry them forever.”
My husband said he knew that God was carrying us as we lost Daniel. And my husband promised me that God would carry us forever.
Because God had promised him that.
God promises all of us that.
My prayer is that no matter where you are in your grief journey that you would know that the Lord is your shepherd and that He will carry you forever…if you will simply let Him.
“The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever.” Psalm 23